I know who I am supposed to Be.
The words I am supposed to Speak.
I know the Rhythm and the Rhyme
of my daily Life.
I know the Steps I am supposed to take.
But I don't want to be
The Person I am supposed to Be.
I don't want to Speak those
Dark words of Pain and Mishap.
I don't want to have that
Effect on others.
I Wish to remain curled up
Protected by my Own Thoughts.
I want my Shadows to stay Hidden.
I want my Demons to remain Secret.
My Blood should be kept in my Veins.
Flowing steady underneath my Skin.
My Essence should not be
Spilled for the Enjoyment of Others.
My Spirit should not be put on
Display for all the World to see.
I don't Want this.
None of It.
All I've ever Wanted was
Someone to Love and Children to Hold.
I did not want be this Person.
Fighting who you Are can be
As difficult as Fighting
The Will of God.
And just as Deadly.